Chad died in my arms today
Chad is my eldest son
He is my loyal friend
He never complained
He always waited for me
I am not a perfect person
But Chad considers me his HUMAN
Our connection was immediate
We just looked at each other the first time in 2004
Since then we were inseparable
Chad was having his seizure spells half-past midnight last night
I carried him in my arms and tried to console him
But he seemed to be in pain and gasping for breath
I told him: “Chad, huwag mo naman akong iwan, please…”
I tried to resuscitate him — blowing air to his mouth
As he heaved his last breath
Chad looked me in the eyes
I knew then that he was saying good-bye
Then all strength left him
My son has gone to heaven
I love you so much, Chad
Bakit mo man ako iniwan?
Papano na ako ngayon?
Who will console me when I’m down?
Who will provide the warmth I got from you?
Who will sleep beside me at night?
Who will protect me now?
I miss you so much, Chad!
Bakit mo man ako iniwan uy?
You left so many happy memories
Anywhere I look — andun ka at pinasaya ako!
Chad, wherever you are please be happy
I will try to move on
Rest assured I will forever treasure our moments together
Hinding-hindi kita makakalimutan
I love you so much that it hurts me right now
Bakit mo kasi ako iniwan Chad?
Di ba walang iwanan?
I love you Chad
You’re at peace now…
No more pain.
I love you so very much…