I woke up feeling sad today. I miss my mom. She died last April 26, 2007. I miss her so bad that I cry just thinking about her. With Tita Cory’s passing, I miss my Mom even more. Sayang. Sayang is all I can say now. I wasted the times when she was alive and not bonded with her enough. I was too immersed with work that I unconsciously took her presence for granted. I miss the times when we used to talk. I miss her stories about her experiences as a teacher. Mom was an educator. She is the epitome of what a teacher should be.
Weeks before my mom died, she would complain about the pain she was feeling. I always tell her that it’s part of getting old. I was not too worried then because her recent check-up on her diabetes and hypertension showed improved results. I noticed that each time I stayed with her, she calmed down. She just wanted to hear my stories. She wanted to hear how my “new” job was coming along. She liked that. She always liked hearing my many adventures. She taught me to believe in myself. She told me that the secret to be successful is to love what I do. Mom instilled in me one important thing – to be ambitious and to aspire for excellence. But she would always tone down and say – BE HUMBLE.
I miss my Mom so much. During her last days, she would just sleep. We communicate by touch. Every time I visited her, I always say in a loud voice: “REPORTING FOR DUTY, MOMMY!” I would then hold her hand and asked her if she knows who I am. Her right foot would twitch. She did recognized me.
When it came to a point that Mom was struggling for air, I held her hand and told her that she can rest and that I will take care of my other siblings. A tear fell from her right eye. I knew then that she got my message.
I was working when I got the call. I left in huff. When I arrived, Mom lay peacefully in eternal sleep.
I miss you Mommy. Rest now. I love you very much.
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Tags: Cory Aquino, Maria Ortega Manansala, mommy
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August 3rd, 2009 at 9:11 PM
This is so touching, Orman. Your parents really did a great job with you and your siblings.
Successful, kind, and loving persons. I’m glad and proud to have met the Manansala siblings.
August 3rd, 2009 at 9:26 PM
@lyle one never really gets over a death of a parent. i always cry when i get reminded of my mom…
and i am privileged to have met you and brendel!
August 4th, 2009 at 12:07 PM
wheew, very touching, indeed. . couldn’t help but shed a tear or two. . .
Lucky me too for having been a friend of the great Manansala siblings!
August 4th, 2009 at 1:23 PM
@inkai iba talaga ang pagmamahal ng nanay…
August 4th, 2009 at 1:59 PM
I cried when i read this blog Kuya Orms, I was not yet over my grief to my Mom’s passing , I cant even enter our house in Butuan without a tear dropping by my eyes – I can still smell , feel and see Mom everywhere in that house – mao stay lang jud ko sa hotel whenever Im in Butuan. I did not even dare to visit her sa cemetery during my Butuan visits – sakit kaayo pa sa buot . . .
August 5th, 2009 at 7:05 AM
I was crying while reading this Kuya Orman, kasi close din ako sa mommy nyo. I know your mom & dad are happy now wherever they are. They are blessed to have you, kuya avel & ate Mara…I’ve seen how you’ve taken care of them and sigurado ako they felt your love and care for them. You are a very good son kuya Orms…I am also a mother, i could imagine how proud she was to have raised her children and be what you are now…
August 5th, 2009 at 7:56 AM
@amie hi ate flor… thanks for dropping by. reading your comment brought tears to my eyes. hope to see you soon. ingat ka always!
August 5th, 2009 at 9:52 AM
april 26, 2007 in the afternoon..
i was having my interview for my nursing course..
pagkalabas ko sa door.. di na maipinta ang mga mukha ng mga friends ko..
i knew at that moment na wala na si mommy..
d ko lang man siya naabutan s bahay at sabihin nkapasa ako s interview..
its so sad to think that she was the reason why i took nursing..
August 5th, 2009 at 10:09 AM
@bheyah hindi mo lagi ito sinabi sa akin bea… huhuhu pinaiyak mo tuloy ako… kaya dapat ipagpatuloy mo ang nursing course mo para kay mommy….
August 9th, 2009 at 9:47 PM
MOM pala initials ng mom nyo.
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August 9th, 2009 at 11:11 PM
hala ka oo nga, gilbert… i didn’t realize that till now… thanks talaga!
August 10th, 2009 at 1:12 PM
April 25, 2007
while i was working, my mom txt me that i should come home coz our mommy is hangin on the line.. i rush home, when i got there i hold her hand and whisper to her “mommy andito na poh ako.wag n po kayo magaalala mommy” she always worries for me, at night while she was still healthy, she never gets to sleep not while all her kids are safe home. she always check on us. that’s her alright.. i slept with her side all night, i thank her and apologize for i was the very pasaway na apo. i told her not to worry about us coz we will be ok..i was her favorite apo you know.. haha on the mOrning of april 26, 2007 i ask permission that i was going to work that day,that i’ll come back in the afternOon. at work, i got a phone call from my mOm, i heard she was crying and i knew from her voice that something is wrong..i cried in the office,then she told me mommy passed away.. i rush home and i saw her. i just cried.. thanks mommy for everything.. i missed her toO..
August 10th, 2009 at 7:04 PM
@myrell — kaya dapat umayos ka na para makarampa ka na ng taas noo… go go go!
April 26th, 2010 at 9:05 AM
Alam ko dami nagmamahal sa iyo ter, nandito kami mga friends mo, pero iba talaga ang pagmamahal ng Nanay. Di mapapantayan yun kahit anong pagmamahal dito sa mundo.
Pinaiyak mo ako sa blogpost na ito ha… may utang kang isang galon ng ice cream pang tahan sa akin. ahahahah…
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April 26th, 2010 at 9:34 AM
My eyes are teary!
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April 26th, 2010 at 9:38 AM
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April 26th, 2010 at 12:35 PM
@sheng — couldn’t help get teary-eyed myself… hahay na lang… GO HUG A MOM TODAY!
April 26th, 2010 at 12:35 PM
@Robstroy — dili lang ice cream ter ang akong utang! manlaki jud ta inig anha nako! hahahahaha!
May 5th, 2010 at 8:17 AM
whew!!! tagal ko na palang d umiyak…akala ko matigas na puso ko..d nga ako naiyak ng mahuli ko si alan may katx mate at naka eyeball pa…pero ng mabasa ko uli ito pati mga old and new comments d ko na mapigil luha ko…miss na miss na kita mommy…kakainis ka naman eh, d mo naman sinabing mahirap maging nanay at asawa…guide mo na lang ako always…love u mommy regards k daddy…
May 8th, 2010 at 6:59 AM
@maraganda — niri-remind ka lang ni mommy na mag-join na ng DMI!